Leaving Out-Patient Rehab: Cravings, temptations, continued program, anxiety and stomach ulcers


I have left the out-patient rehab program for my Binge Eating Disorder about two months ago.  This rehab program was a shorter one, but I went in willingly and since it was my own choice I found it easier to go through.

While I was there, I learnt a whole lot about myself and what I have to work on and continue in the future. And with that being said, I have to thank my therapists and nutritionists for all their support throughout the program and being there through all my ups and downs.

One of my major issues was stress related and schedule related and with terrible schedules I would not allow myself to eat and when you get over hungry you just wanna eat as much as you can in a short span and before you know it several thousand calories are done. Of course this wasn’t just all…because that could mean you’re hungry but there are other issues too.

The cravings have been there. But instead of restricting I give in to them. But I moderate the servings. Like 1 scoop of ice cream or one serving of chips. And in all honesty when you have regular and consecutive meals that is all you need.

Temptations have also been around. When people want you to go out and eat or when you are out studying and need to keep ordering food to stay in the restaurant. And this has been my biggest fear. And with that, I have had trouble communicating with everyone who wants to go out. It has caused a misbalance and also a social anxiety. Cause one day someone wants to have breakfast at Tims, the next day someone wants to have supper at Taco Bell or McDonald’s. And this is where it was hard for me to commit to commitments and be around so many people. But as time is going on, I am starting to understand and ease myself into it.

Even though I am out of rehab, I am seeing two nutritionists and continuing progressions. I am starting to eat healthy and watch my weight. I have attended meetings and follow-ups. I know it is not easy and it won’t be easy but eventually I will get somewhere, where my goals are currently relaxing.

There has been some issues lately. One that put me in Emergency. And it was severe anxiety I was getting during my period where I was sleeping and having anxiety attacks in my sleep to a point I woke up in the nights severely shaking.

Because of that I had been throwing up non-stop and lost my appetite. With that, I have been living off of greek yogurt and ensure high protein drinks. In one week I lost 5.7 lbs. While I am not proud of the way I lost it…I am kind of happy to see my body losing weight.

I am currently on meds and not expected to get back my appetite for another 2-3 weeks.

Symptoms of Stomach Ulcers:

  • dull pain in the stomach
  • weight loss
  • not wanting to eat because of pain
  • nausea or vomiting
  • bloating
  • feeling easily full
  • burping or acid reflux
  • heartburn (burning sensation in the chest)
  • pain that may improve when you eat, drink, or take antacids
  • anemia (symptoms can include tiredness, shortness of breath, or paler skin)
  • dark, tarry stools
  • vomit that’s bloody or looks like coffee grounds



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