Day 1 of Summer Training

25/06/2019 – Tuesday. I started my new season 2019-2020 season. I am so excited to start the season. However, I know there are a lot of complications that are about to bump ahead. Complications with the actual sport:  Arena locations. Arena times for skating. Coaches schedules My schedules Complications with my health:  Fibro affecting. Endo…

Confusion of my Future

So here are a few thought processes that have been going on in my head lately. All while my mind is playing tricks on me. My skating season ended in March. However, I am still going through the withdrawals of the missing adrenaline that I am not receiving. Like it is actually affecting me physically…

Struggle of explaining Health

  So the word has been out for a while, where I finally decided to switch Dance Coaches and to get someone better for the needs I needed on the ice. While the switch was pending for months prior, the actual switch came in (end) of January 2019. My biggest fear was having to explain…

End of Season

It has been over a full week since I ended my 2018-2019 Figure Skating year. This was also my 20th season on the ice. As you all remember last season was a disappointment after coming off from a season high the year before. Well, this season didn’t start off so good. And to be honest…

Paralyzed by Fear

Bell Let’s Talk is back. And it could not have come at a better time. Why is that? I have been suffering big time mentally lately, and it is progressively getting worse.

Blindsided by a Nagging Injury

Why yes, it has been forever since I have updated. Basically since the site showed my last school assignment. While I hope you all can forgive me, I still feel like I have to give an explanation about my whereabouts. While, I am not comfortable and/or ready to get into the details about this injury….

Massive Disappointment: Avoiding Provincials

  I don’t figure skate or compete like everyone else. Yes, it is nice to beat my personal best scores. But to get a medal? A medal is nice, especially when you do a great program but that’s not why I am in it. I use competitions as an adrenaline boost to keep my body…

Depression: Thoughts, Actions, Being worthless!

This is probably going to be one of the hardest posts I have ever had to write. But one that I need to get off my chest before it eats me up. Mental Illness is probably one of the biggest silent killers there is in the world. Yet one that nobody really knows how to…

Biggest Mistake – Humira

Ankylosing Spondylitis has been a journey on it’s own. With all the treatments I was going through and some were little to not working at all. My doctor suggested Humira. An injection that I would inject myself with once a week, every two weeks. Looking for any sort of relief I gave in and I…

The Tired Athlete: Recap of 2016-2017 Season

  Now, before anything. The tired athlete is an actual thing but it is something that most athletes (amateur and professional), coaches (any level) and most people don’t know about. And sadly, it is a common mistake amongst many that they only begin to learn what it is when the athlete has hit it. So…

Relapse and Journey to (ED) Rehab-

As many of you noticed. These past few weeks have been extremely tough. For those who don’t know, or have missed the past few posts. I have completely relapsed with the binge eating disorder. I spent days/weeks trying to play it off saying everything was okay. When clearly it wasn’t. I tried to go to…