Depression: Thoughts, Actions, Being worthless!

This is probably going to be one of the hardest posts I have ever had to write. But one that I need to get off my chest before it eats me up. Mental Illness is probably one of the biggest silent killers there is in the world. Yet one that nobody really knows how to…

Biggest Mistake – Humira

Ankylosing Spondylitis has been a journey on it’s own. With all the treatments I was going through and some were little to not working at all. My doctor suggested Humira. An injection that I would inject myself with once a week, every two weeks. Looking for any sort of relief I gave in and I…

The Tired Athlete: Recap of 2016-2017 Season

  Now, before anything. The tired athlete is an actual thing but it is something that most athletes (amateur and professional), coaches (any level) and most people don’t know about. And sadly, it is a common mistake amongst many that they only begin to learn what it is when the athlete has hit it. So…

Relapse and Journey to (ED) Rehab-

As many of you noticed. These past few weeks have been extremely tough. For those who don’t know, or have missed the past few posts. I have completely relapsed with the binge eating disorder. I spent days/weeks trying to play it off saying everything was okay. When clearly it wasn’t. I tried to go to…

Mental Illness and Complete relapse of Eating Disorder

Today is Bell Let’s Talk Day. A way to end stigma about Mental Health. And how it is taboo to talk about Mental Health. If you’ve been following this website you know the struggles I’ve been going through. I suffer from high anxiety which has been getting better. But sometimes I hit the point where…

Binge eating; the relapse and addiction

*Heads up about this post…may not be suitable for all readers* Getting cleared from a binging disorder had been a huge accomplishment for me. Especially struggling with it longer than I can remember; and it impacting my everyday life. However, recovering was not as glamorous as I expected. Now…before getting into this I will talk…

Training for a 2 program competition 5 days after the last one.

As I wrote a few days ago, I performed 2 routines in a weekend competition. This was along with 2 hospitalizations. Now with 6 days to prepare for the next one there are many things I have to factor. A) My health. It’s not strong lately and pretty much since September it’s been a downward…

Week in Review: 2 gold medals & 2 hospitalizations

What a week this has been. So many ups and downs…especially with a double routine competition in sight. Monday was fine. I felt a bit run down, but come on midterms, competitions, essays, exams etc… I was just a stress ball. I was also up until 2 am studying for a health science exam due…

Injury News!

Most of you DON’T know that the past few weeks I have been training on a double injury. However, I am still trying to last as long as I can before needing to take full time to recover. If all goes as I have planned (which everyone knows it wont) I will be taking time…

Skating Competition #1 of season: Learning to Control Flares

Friday Afternoon was the first Figure Skating Competition of my season. Was not a big one… however, it was a test to see how my body would respond with all the medical issues I am currently dealing with. My test: I was seeing how the preparation would affect my body… How the competition itself would…